so. one more day before the new year. and one day to go for project 365. today, i stayed at home- more specifically in bed all day. you could say that with the year ending, i feel like reflecting a lot- or not exactly reflecting but more of reminiscing. #sigh i feel well, idk. weird, i guess.
on one hand, i feel i don’t know. empty? fearful? lonely?
i miss mom a lot. like, i often wonder what it’d be like if she were still here, you know?
i’ve lost a lot of ties. whether it was because of something i said or never did, them pusing me away or excluding themselves, or simply drifting apart, it happened.
i feel like i need to focus more on school. i’ll be graduating (hopefully), before summer and applying for work like, in the real world. so yeah. i’m scared.
and of course, i sometimes feel like i’m waiting for things that’ll never happen and i have all these bottled up emotions and things i’ll never say. fml.
of course, on the other hand, i’m really happy with 2011; happy for simple things like,
i got to read a pile of books, watch a lot of tv, catch a few movies, take all the photos, and get cool new stuff.
i still have amazing friends (and i’ve made a lot of new ones) that i’ll treasure forever. you know who you are ;)
i have a loving family. enough said.
i got to attend the sickest parties and i’ve been able to accomplish and try a lot of new things- some i’ve never thought of ever doing.
and i learned new things. some random, some pointless, some life changing. :)
i’d like to use this post to formally thank the coffee station for keeping me awake, my ipod and 7up for keeping me company on the plane. the stairs for nearly tripping me while i climbed the vehicle and zest air for the best flight of my life. that is all. ;))
second to the last day. i survived! WEEE. the second to the last day always means last minute shopping. that said, we went to the mall. which is sort of big but small enough for me to thoroughly er.. search. i bought a shirt and a vest. selfless as always~ afterwards we watched a movie. then we had dinner / a snack at cafe bob’s. lo and behold. another thing from my bucketlist has been crossed out. i have tasted french macarons. and eh, they’re alright. really pretty but.. i’d go for a cake any day. ;D still. gorgeous aren’t they? <3
and i may have accidentally ordered a spiked mocha frap in front of my dad. oops
so. christmas eve of 2011 was unlike any other. normally, i’d either be at home online, at some hotel being pampered or at Pampangga for some sort of familial gathering. alas, today i went hiking. waterfall trekking to be exact. and out of seven waterfalls, i got to one. eh, close enough. then i went swimming. hello, pool. no one was there. so FYEAH. lucky me, right? then, to top things off, i went ziplining. HAHA. INTENSE, I know. best.. day of Christmas eve ever. :D! oh and i went online for twenty whole minutes. at this mall. that was closing in twenty minutes. merry christmas, ineed~
when i grow up, i wannabe famous, i wanna be a star
day two of eight. hello Mambukal resort. searing hot for Christmas, isn’t it? anyway. a one hour jeepney ride with twenty other people and their luggage isn’t very.. fun. it’s exhausting though you’re just sitting.
and when i got off the vehicle, i went straight to my room for the weekend house and slumped my sorry ass to bed. woke up around.. 11pm to read Clockwork angel. FYEAH \m/
hello 7 day vacation. oh wait, did i say 7? i meant 8. we checked our tickets and apparently, our flight back home is on the 29th. fabulous, right? -_- oh well. at least TG brought wifi with her. oh wait, did i say wifi? yes. i did. but apparently it doesn’t work. 8 days without the internet? challenge.. accepted. not like i have a choice exactly. -_- i’m just gonna have to sleep this off. oh well.
photo is of my little art project in the sky. thirty thousand feet above the ground to be specific. doodling at my air sickness bag. because even my barf has to look awesome. ;D